Decisions

I have a very big and important decision to make.
Every step that i take, will decide how i choose my life to be.
Every wrong step leads to regrets, anguish, heartbreak and tears.
Every right move leads to joy, happiness, love and it surely will be pleasing to my God.
Now, and now, a decision is needed to be made.
More time and attachment equals to more heartache and headache.
Time, feelings and emotions i have already invested.
I am sitting on the fence of my life.Butt's blooming, heart's aching!
I have no one to talk to about this.Why?
Because of my pride. Not wanting to show that i have made the wrong choice.
The thought of possibly loosing my friends,makes me run away from my friends.To live in denial and avoidance.
I fear, fear that they will not understand me and so i choose to run, to hide, to escape away from them and live instead in my tiny world of fantasy.
Man, i am lousy.